My Dad

I am sitting her thinking about the night my father died. I never cried so hard. All the way to the hospital I drove, maybe 20 minutes. I had gotten a call at 7pm in the evening to come, come now. I knew it was the call that he was dying. I could feel it in my bones. I cried as I drove and when I got to the hospital I held out that 1% of hope I was wrong. The minute I got off the elevator, a nurse walked by with tears in her eyes ... I knew she had come from my father's hospital room. I knew he was dead. I walked down the hall and my brother was there, he just shook his head and look at the floor. I got to the room and the Emergency team was doing the last few shoscks and CPR. My mother was in shock, she had been there and witnessed the entire episode. She was hysterical. She was in shock. I entered the romm, and a few minutes later ... they "called it." Time of death; 7:49 pm. Just like a scene in a bad TV hospital show. Then they left the room. I held his still warm hand, kissed his forehead and cried like a baby. My Dad was just gone. He had a tube sticking out of his mouth and his body was life-less. I prayed for him. I walked around, went back into the room where his body layed, slowly I noticed his skin began to get colder, so harsh, so stark, so real. This was it. There was no bringing him back. He was gone forever. And I cried all night. I never felt sorrow like that in my life. I had no idea the human soul could feel so much pain. The pain cut through me like a knife splitting in two. And I stayed in the hospital for a couple of hours, kneeling over his dead body. Then going off into another room to cry some more. I can still feel the pain today, and it has been almost 9 years. My father's death is like a tatoo on my soul. An event I will never forget, as long as I live, it will be in vivid color, right in the forefront of my mind...... And that night I cried. I had lost my best friend in the world. I had lost one of the only people that really ever cared about me. And I cried .........

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I am an Alcoholic.  I want to share my Alcoholic story with you.  I am hoping if you are an Alcoholic that you can find hope an inspiration to put the bottle down and change your life today.  Yes, decide to change your life today. In the middle of one of my countless bouts with the bottle, I was trying to pull-up and stop drinking.  Two or three weeks of drinking was enough, my life was slowly sinking into the depths of despair and I called my sponser to ask him - " How do I stop drinking?"  His response to me was " One minute at a time, one minute at a time you don't drink."  If you are desperately seeking advice as to how to stop the current Alcoholic binge that you are on right now, my advice to you is to stop drinking "One minute at a time, just one minute at a time."

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I am sure my story is unique.  Yet my story is the same as many Alcoholics.  When I took my First Drink, that was it.  I found that special feeling every alcoholic knows.  I found my best friend, beer, tequila, gin, vodka, whiskey, you name it, if it got me drunk, I was all over it.  I drank for one reason and that was to get drunk.  Ask any Alcoholic about their first drinking episode and 99 out of 100 will tell you that they fell in love with "booze," and that they drank for one reason, to get as drunk as possible.  That first drink was all it took and I was a hooked.  Alcohol had its hooks in me but good.  And there was no stopping the run-away train that was just starting to leave the station.  Little did I know where that train was heading, and little did I know I was on that train. But more about that later .....

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An Alcoholic's journey to their own personal bottoms are all different and still again have a common thread running though them.  And like me, many Alcoholics have to bounce off that bottom a few times, several times, 20 times, 50 times, - I bounced off my personal bottom probably 100 times or more, (but that is just a guess ).  My Alcoholic story, it's not pretty.  And it is only a success, ( if you care to categorize it that way), because I am still here, alive, to write about it.
Before I even start to go down the road on the subject of Alcoholism, real Alcoholism, I need to stop.

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Last night I talked with my 85 year old Aunt and my 55 year old cousin about my Father and his Alcoholic drinking. My Father had the disease of Alcoholism so bad, he never found sobriety. He stopped drinking for a dozen years or so arounf age 45, but soon after he had help in his office and business, had made a success of himself, his Alcoholism took over and he went back to Alcoholic drinking until finally it killed him. Yes, I lost my Father to the disease of Alcoholism. What we talked about was why? Why all the drinking, Alcoholic drinking? What was it about my Father that he could not stay away from "booze" and drank until he died of Alcoholism. My Aunt had her memories of my Father and so did my cousin, but they did not have an answer as to why he he was an Alcoholic, and continued to drink until his Alcoholism played a large role in his pre-mature death. Alcoholism kills people, I have witnessed it first hand with my own Father, my Dad, who even though he was a terrible Alcoholic, I miss him to this verey day. HTG Sr. died December 9, 2002, of complications in the hospital due to Alcoholism, may he rest in peace. Love you Dad.

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